Every time I get really sick, it seems as it's the worst time ever. Last couple days were like riding a roller coaster. From blissful and calm "Oh, that's fun, we're approaching a slope" to breathtaking downhill when all you can think about is "When is it going to stop? STOP!"
Whenever I can sleep, my dreams are full of aggression and negativity. I feel bad almost every time I wake up (might also be because I wake up with a little puddle of nastiness on my pillow). Buildings explode, my former school teacher is mad, people argue, my dad is mean to an old lady, I curse around my in-laws, football...football? That's what I dream about.
I'll leave you with a song that's been stuck in my head for several hours. Now back to bed and tissues. peace out.
I would swallow my pride,
I would choke on the rinds,
But the lack thereof
Would leave me empty inside,
I would swallow my doubt
Turn it inside out
Find nothin' but faith in nothing.
Want to put my tender heart in a blender,
Watch it spin 'round into a beautiful oblivion.
Rendezvous, then I'm through with you
Eve 6 - Inside Out
Whenever I can sleep, my dreams are full of aggression and negativity. I feel bad almost every time I wake up (might also be because I wake up with a little puddle of nastiness on my pillow). Buildings explode, my former school teacher is mad, people argue, my dad is mean to an old lady, I curse around my in-laws, football...football? That's what I dream about.
I'll leave you with a song that's been stuck in my head for several hours. Now back to bed and tissues. peace out.
I would swallow my pride,
I would choke on the rinds,
But the lack thereof
Would leave me empty inside,
I would swallow my doubt
Turn it inside out
Find nothin' but faith in nothing.
Want to put my tender heart in a blender,
Watch it spin 'round into a beautiful oblivion.
Rendezvous, then I'm through with you
Eve 6 - Inside Out
I know what you mean - For the past few weeks, I'm afraid to fall asleep because I don't have anything but nightmares every single night. I toss and turn and even when I wake up and then fall back asleep, I go back into the same dream and it gets worse or a different one that is just as bad. It's scary and I know I need sleep but I fight it and don't want to fall asleep.
ReplyDeleteThat sounds awful. Have you tried thinking about something comforting or listening to music that calms you down before sleep?
ReplyDeleteSee, with me it wasn't the problem of being afraid of my dreams, more like not liking the fact that I thought up all those angry things in my mind while dreaming.