So what?

"Two steps forward, one step back". I used to think that when I grow up, I will attain some sort of special wisdom that will open up my eyes to a whole new world full of order and understanding. Needless to say, I was WRONG. In fact, the emotional issues I've been experiencing in the past year, are the type I used to attribute mostly to troubled teens.

Anger, envy, insecurity, anxiety, trouble forgiving, over-analyzing the issues that really don't deserve to be called issues to begin with. This terrible mix usually shows up with me when there is stress, but isn't it about time to learn to deal with it a little better? I am acting immature. What's funny is that I do realize it all, yet I still let those emotions go through and ultimately cause some damage...even when it's done solely to myself.

It's like a snowball. You believe that you've got a few serious problems -- hey, even one is enough for me -- and a myriad of little insignificant ones all of a sudden "show up" (read as "get invented") and roll onto your snowball. No, sweating the small stuff isn't fun.

My husband recently shared a pretty good verse from the Bible. It reminds me of how small all the perceived problems are on the big scale. Maybe a little depressing, but helps you stop and ask that much-needed "So what?"- question, when things just don't go according to your plan.

Ecclesiastes 1:2-4 (NIV)

2 "Meaningless! Meaningless!"

says the Teacher.

"Utterly meaningless!

Everything is meaningless."

3 What does man gain from all his labor

at which he toils under the sun?

4 Generations come and generations go,

but the earth remains forever.

Originally written on Feb 23, 2010