"We fail more often by timidity than by over-daring."

David Grayson

True that. Couldn't put it any better.

There is this one person who means a whole lot to me. I'm not exactly sure what caused it, but he's very upset at me now and I want so much to fix things. I was wishy-washy about something with him and wouldn't give many reasons, so I guess that's why...It doesn't really matter what my excuses were for acting the way I did, I just wish I knew now that he's not hurt because of me. But I think he's too upset and too determined to get revenge or whatever scary thing he does to really hear what I'm saying. I hate it when this happens. When two people are headed in the same direction, yet something small happens that makes them confused and questioning as to whether they really were on the same team.

It's like in kindergarten. You play with your buddy but then somehow you get carried away and do something really obnoxious and unfair to them without much intent. You see your friend get upset. They throw stones at you, ignore your "sorry"s like they can't hear and walk away or maybe even get ready to beat you up. But somehow instead of calling them a monkey and thinking about saving your pretty derriere, you know you shouldn't be mad. You feel bad for what happened and want them to feel better...because they're your buddy and you love them...and you know that they care even if they don't show it at the time.